Breathing Machine: #LoveWins
"Unedited, un-memorized, one-take-only, perfectly imperfect, I share a piece I wrote after a breathwork group on the day where Love won (6.26.15). In order to show up for myself, I step out of my comfort zone to be seen and perform for you as an act of self love for me. Evermore thanks for witnessing."
Belly heart open mouth
The room began to breathe
In rhythmic fashion
Belly heart open mouth
Belly heart open mouth
That made me feel like being part of a machine
Inhale inhale exhale
Inhale inhale exhale
But a soft
Fleshy
Sweaty
Alive machine of human being-ness
As we were squished together
In a dark warm summer room
Reclaiming parts of ourselves
That previously were a source of shame
Belly heart open mouth
Belly heart open mouth
Belly heart open mouth
Inhale inhale exhale
Inhale inhale exhale
Reclaiming
Power
Beauty
Confidence
Intuition
Anger
Pleasure and play
Self love
Our bodies
Our too much
Our weird
Our whole selves
Belly heart open mouth
Belly heart open mouth
As tears released
And my cry erupted out
The room became alive with noise
And movement
And passion
And energy
From soft whimpers
To guttural moans
To long yells
To hoots of joy and hilarious giggles
Belly heart open mouth
Belly heart open mouth
I felt the beauty of being in a body
Of feeling pain
Of feeling joy
Of feeling my heart so big and open
That I might just lift off the ground
And return to the stars
Belly heart open mouth
I felt the struggle
The challenge
The separateness our illusions hold
As I realized
Belly heart open mouth
Inhale inhale exhale
In this noisy room of breathing beauties
Fully expressing what it is to be raw, primal, tribal, real
I felt the intimacy of
We are connected as one
In this great big breathing alive machine
As a hand of the sister breathing next to me grasped mine
We are family
And I wept for you
And sang for you
For me
As you are me
And I am you
As I whispered and breathed a prayer
{Ho'oponopono}
I am so sorry
Please forgive me
Thank you
I love you
I am sorry for the times I've abandoned or hurt you
Please forgive me for the times I have been cruel or unfair or judged you
Thank you humans for carrying the burdens I can't carry myself and thank you for everything you are
I love you
Always
Endlessly
As Love always wins
Belly heart open mouth